Since dad passed away, I have had a difficult time getting a grip on life. I can’t seem to open my bible for long with any sort of focus. I can’t seem to find words to write. I can’t even find the energy to do basic chores around the house with any consistency. I keep telling myself to get it together, but in the same breath, I also tell myself it is okay to grieve. Then, with the next breath, I tell myself I have grieved long enough, and I turn on myself, getting frustrated and angry because I feel so paralyzed. The last six months have been rough.
No matter how old we are the loss of parents makes us feel like orphans! I didn't have the easiest of relationships with mine, but I miss them dearly. Praying that you find comfort in God.
What a beautiful father-daughter relationship, Deanna. I'm rejoicing with you for the years you had together. And here's a virtual hug for the sadness of the loss of his presence here on earth. Praying you continue to experience God's grace and comfort, especially during August and September. May He carry you across and through these anniversaries.
I feel like I'm sitting near you this morning, cup of coffee in my hand, listening to an old friend. Your words are honest and brave. As you say, we know we will all die, but it is still hard. Almost five years after my dad's death, I still get surprised by grief from time to time. The good news is, God can use the paralysis you feel as a testament to His work in your life. For now, give yourself time, and be as kind to yourself as your dad would have been.
Beautiful picture of you and your dad. Sending love, hugs, and prayers for peace and comfort.
No matter how old we are the loss of parents makes us feel like orphans! I didn't have the easiest of relationships with mine, but I miss them dearly. Praying that you find comfort in God.
What a beautiful father-daughter relationship, Deanna. I'm rejoicing with you for the years you had together. And here's a virtual hug for the sadness of the loss of his presence here on earth. Praying you continue to experience God's grace and comfort, especially during August and September. May He carry you across and through these anniversaries.
~Lisa, FMF #21
I feel like I'm sitting near you this morning, cup of coffee in my hand, listening to an old friend. Your words are honest and brave. As you say, we know we will all die, but it is still hard. Almost five years after my dad's death, I still get surprised by grief from time to time. The good news is, God can use the paralysis you feel as a testament to His work in your life. For now, give yourself time, and be as kind to yourself as your dad would have been.
Amie, FMF #18